Sunday, January 08, 2006
why is life so. idiotic.
everything i do, there's always a consequence. or rather. the things that are happening in my life now. shit.
shit happens.
sigh. it just fucks everyhting up. i regret doing stuff because i fear the consequence. such an ass. camp. so complicated. such a responsibility. i could just die. as if im so free. everyone's not free. payment. money. damn it.
sister. stupid. why do you have to do that. sigh. makes me regret buying it. you know why.
damn it. see? life isnt all laughter and fun. but i knew that already. i just. was in denial. am in. denial.
argh.
stupid stupid. i should just throw it away.
so what if im paranoid. not everyone can be like you. not a damn care in the world. no thought for consequence. it's good of course that u live in the moment. it sucks you think i should be like you. leave me alone. let me be paranoid. just. dont question my actions. dont be a bitch.
dont dont. ha. im telling you what not to be now huh?
but. guess what. i dont think you would care. not these few days. throwing responsibility.
now. why did i not give it to you? you're going for your damn project meeting. who in the right mind would give it to you? just think about it. if i gave it to you. would you REALLY be doing your work. now REALLY.
damn it. damn it. now i regret asking you to get it for me. cos if i didnt tell you about it, you wouldnt know about it. would you like me to keep things from you? now seriously, WOULD YOU? keep everything from you. maybe i will. if you push it. let's just see.
haha. i think people reading this would go: WTF? cos you have no clue what im talking about. (: that's good.
I adopted a cute lil' emo fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!