Saturday, August 06, 2005
where did it all go wrong?
i used to love swimming. i loved the feeling of weightlessness. basically i loved the freedom. how ironic. freedom. it seems only to close in on me. swimming. why? i wish i loved it. i do. really. i would make things easier. i could say i love swimming thats why i hav to do this and that.
my heart has been broken into pieces and i hav left them where i know i care. soon, i will run out. soon i will have no more heart to give. no more compassion. not yet. but soon. the feeling is horrible and yet indescribable. it hurts. sigh.
could a heart hurt this bad? i'll tell u yes. it hurts while i smile and while i laugh. it hurts when i sleep. it hurts while i live. sigh. it hurts even now. rubbish. crap. i hate this feeling doncha know? hmm.
i better smile more. it fits me better. peace out-
I adopted a cute lil' emo fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!