The Unbelievably Random Rantings of a Teenage Err.

Monday, August 15, 2005

whee. museum visit today. it wasnt too bad. i love the exhibition. journey of ffaith. pretty kewl.

anyways. i hav 2d to do.. no paint. no time. no mood. how? ee yer. i m so insecure.

i m doing ideation. still no mood.
ee. cut out and find and cut out. urk. i dont likeit.

wth. i dont like myself. when i read my own blog. i dont like what i see. how did my life turn out like this. i used to be known to be so friggin positive. now all i think abt is hate and anger. i dont like. not at all. i wanna be happy. i really do. but i cannot.

hrm. tmr. is monday. my plan.

-wake up, lessons, get deferment form, go home. er. slack? no. maybe i dont go home first. go finish 2d sketchbook. er. go do lantern thing.er. er. then.prolly. go and. go home? er. lucky drawess no hw. phew. eee. tues got training. how the hell am i gonna go thru with all these?? i dont get it. why cant i not do it when i dont feel ready at all? sigh. they just wanna use me. i hate them.

er. ya. anybody wanna be like me? cos i so wanna be like you. or you. or you. either one of u.

sometimes i like my life. sometimes i feel so used. like a piece of rubbish. or rather. a pencil. picked up only when im needed. and then when ive gotten too short. i get thrown away.

hrm. eesh. i need to stop these kind posts. i know ive said b4. but. wat the hell. i feel emo-ish.

i hate to read ppl's blog when they feel emo-ish cos it makes me sad. okay. not hate. but i feel sad for them too.

i know how ppl feel somehow. i dno how. but i do. er.. ya. im tired. i still need to look for the dang art pieces. SHIT LA. someone. be my wall. stop me from falling down.

eee. so emo. i dont like emo feelings. it sucks. the feeling sucks. i feel lousy. but i like the word emo. and i think emo ppl look cool smtimes. i just dont like the feeling. it feels weird to know some ppl may read this. but. well. it is my blog after all. whee.

peace out-